This week was super eye opening. I learned so much about all aspects of life. First of all on Tuesday we left with Sister Trythall, the mission president’s wife. And it was so fun to see our area from a different perspective and to hear her testimony and feel her spirit. This week I felt super grateful for every little thing I’ve lived through. I’m super grateful for this time I have to be super focused in changing myself and helping others to change.
I also had some opportunities to have deep conversations this week with a few different people. The first one I had was with my companion. We talked about how sometimes we feel like we don’t feel the spirit as strongly or as drastic of a difference and the truth is that we are so connected spiritually that I realized it's normal. It's normal that people in the street feel the spirit strongly and they share the hard things they’ve gone through or what they’re going through right now after talking to them for 3 minutes. And that is only possible thanks to the Spirit. And the fact that that happens, isn’t normal, but after a year of that happening, it feels normal. But the spirit is still working through me and my companion in basically every second. We also talked about daily repentance and how sometimes it's hard to repent daily on the mission when you haven’t said harsh words to someone, or I haven’t fought with my siblings because we are used to thinking about repentance in that way. But really here on the mission daily repentance is more of a refined tuning. It’s not judging the people as much, expanding your capacity to love, and be a better tool in God’s hands. And that to me has given me a new perspective of life. That obviously when we mess up big, we can repent and change and be forgiven for what we’ve done, but when someone really comes to understand the atonement of Jesus Christ, they start to see repentance as a transformation. A slow, constant transformation to who God wants us to become. And like how a father wants his kids to become better than he was, it’s the same with God. In the end he wants us to become better than he ever was.
Another deep conversation I had with my President was about having a constant prayer in our heart. And how we can always pray in our heart for everything. And as we have a prayer in our heart we end up aligning our will with God’s will and we slowly change and progress into our potential. And that helps us stay faithful to our baptismal covenant to always remember him. As I was talking to President Trythall I just felt so much love. It was probably the closest love of what I imagine it will be like talking to the Savior. Talking to someone that’s been there the entire journey through every up and down that has seen our successes and failures and still loves us so unconditionally. And I realized that he has pure love. And I want to be able to change daily to be able to have this real true love and emulate Christ’s love.
Then I had another conversation with my parents this morning. I was telling them about how I always want to accomplish more and help more people and be better, that sometimes I neglect what I am doing at that very moment because I already want to do the next thing better. And that has caused a little bit of stress in my mission. And today I got to talk to my parents about that and they helped me see the importance of living and appreciating the moment. Everything that needs to happen in our lives will happen, because God is good and loving. If we keep trusting and progressing slowly every day, God will make everything work. I’m not saying that we don’t do anything and we stay in bed all day because we trust that God will make everything work. I’m saying that we need to put all our effort into becoming better, loving more, being more humble, or whatever it is, and as we put forth effort, God will take care of the rest. I am excited this week to better live in the moment and help the people in a more loving and genuine way. I know that every time in the Bible or in the Book of Mormon Jesus did everything he did with the most love possible. And he never told someone, “I’ll just heal you or help you real quick because there is someone else that needs help too”. No Christ was there in every moment for that person emotionally, physically, spiritually, and did everything he could to help and lift that person. Maybe we are doing the things we should do in our lives, but we can do it with more intention, more love, more like Jesus.
This week I want to put this to the test. And I’ll let you guys know next week how it goes. If you want to try it too, do it! I know that this life is hard. It’s hard to change, but God wants you to change, he doesn’t want you to stay where you are. He knows your potential. Satan wants you to think you are perfect just the way you are and you don’t need to change. You are amazing how you are, but imagine how much better you can be with Jesus at your side. This week lets work right beside Jesus. I know he loves you and he can change you this week.
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